I still remember the password to this thing.


AHAHAHAH.
California, you are a trip.
I need to move into a new place though.


The other day, I had the best thing said to me. Actually.. 2 people told me the same thing. I don't want to jinx it.


I have 4 temporary tattoos.
A cat on my left wrist, a skeleton with a pink bow on my right wrist, and a bat on my foot :D
halloweeenie!


My hair is 10 inches shorter than it used to be and turning blonde. I'm dying it back brown asap.

Emily and I went to see Mest and Rookie of the Year the other day. That was funnny.
Oh, and senses fail is playing here soon. HAHA. oh the old days.





Check out:
www.marcmez.com

Pink eye, again.
Cold # 3 ?
Something else that I don't even know what it is? Haha.
Two timed by the biggest douche bag, ever.
Ignored by his friends, my sort of friends?
Worst rumor ever created by Big John.
Everyone keeps believing it?
'Cut off communication' with wittle jim hocking because apparently I treated him like shit? When clearly, it was the other way around.
Stupid plastic baby for health class.
Flat tire -aka- my paycheck going towards a new one.. when I for once have money, it's gone.
I miss long island and california and florida and everyone in nyc that i haven't seen in forever.
I hate school, like usual.
I hate drawing fashion figures and bitchy girls.
I hate being hit on.
My dad's an asshole.
I miss my grandpa.
I miss living on my own. Although things are better now that my mom moved back in, I can't do as many thigs as I used to.
I've been making it to school everyday, it's getting annoying.
I need a job, but I don't really feel like quitting?
I love ballet, but it always makes me too tired.
I'm so pale.
I miss you, I love you. We fight all the time, but it's weird not being friends anymore.
2008 is most likely the worst year, ever. It just began.
Done complaining. I hate complaining toooo ??? but no one reads this shit anyway.

welll, jim hocking, you reallly should stop lying to me and stop lurking out my life.
oh, and stop being a hyprocrite? i guess..


i know you still believe what big john said.. and i know other people know what big john said, SOOO thanks for talking to me about first and getting the story straight, oh wait, you didnt. nor did you tell the other people that know that the story wasnt true. really, i appreciate it.


i don't love you.








oohhh and i have like, 5 days to get my portfolio into top shape.
nooot going to happen. going to diiiee :[ ugh.

Ok, I haven't updated since December 9th.

I don't even know what's been going on.
A bunch of my friends keep passing through on tour.
It's rad. amazing. I miss them :[.

I've been to cobrastarship twice so far, missed the nyc one cause my guestlist spot got sick..
I'm hoping to go the next 2 times they're around thanks to danny hutto :D

Adam is leaving again for another .. 2 months?
I got real sick yesterday and couldnt get to philly to see him :[ bummed, a ton.
I miss Betsy :[
I just sneeeezed some boogies. LOLOL.
I won't be able to get on big bus cause adam's leaving and big bus has been left in like, arkansas? hahah
jk. idk where it is.
florida has been in my living room a lot. k, well, just oceana for a day and a half :D
i went to florida over went break. drove down. got bored. flew home early. :[

rediscover is back. mesa and i can FINALLLLYYY see them. ugh.
except brodie just so happens to be on that tour with grace gale and its sucking cause hes creeeping always.

my manager wants to fire me cause i call out too much.
good, fire me, you call me ma'am and have a lisp. i don't like you.
i hate shoprite anywayyy.

jessse's back. well, talking to me again. it's weird. he's meaner than he used to be. idk.
elysia's gonna be back in jersey soon. they're prettty dick lately too. ehh.

idk what to update on. school sucks, work sucks, being 18 is gonna suck, boys suck, being sick sucks, missing people.. sucks.



BYYYYEEEEEE<3

I reallly miss you.




Thanks for answering the phone at 3am when
I'm crying and you can't understand what I'm
saying, but you try to calm me down anyway.
I miss talking to you everyday.
I miss you leaving your smelly socks when you leave.
I miss talking to you about everything.
I miss falling asleep next to you on accident.
I miss trying to make you dance.
I miss your sweater.
I miss you. A lot. More than I should.

Sunday.
Got to asbury at like 4.
Hung outside with brooke dan and jesse for like an hr and a half.
Met up with beav, snuck a laminate onto me and a wristband and got in.
Sat at the a skylit drive merch table with beav and mcmb and the banner and whatever.
Met up with dan and matt and theeennn garrett and zak :D
and steven and danny and everyone else.
went to see btbam with dan and some neeegs.
played soccer upstairs by the merch tables with garrett.
'posted' with garrett and zak and made fun of everyone walking in and out.
got dirty looks from security guards all day. YESS :D
danced with garrrettt and basicallly fought eachother during all of glassjaw haha.
were so bruised.
security guards yellled at us.
hung out with tons of people i loveee and bands i loveee and i loveee life.




tehehhtehhte bye i miss sa town.

Ok.


Friday.. worked til 5 then picked up some alabamians at the airport..
aka Nathan and Wayne.
long story, but they were here.

Went to saints and sinners :D.
Didn't expect to goo.. but anyway..

Met up with mychildren mybride and hungout for a little.
found dan and belakiss
then found elysia
then found some other friends and hungout all night.
did merch with dubie, danced with garrett, got chinese with zak, steve and garrettt, had a fun time.

and hopefully.. doing it again tomorrow :D

idk meng.

and next friday Boooo comes back :DDDDDDDDDDD

'You're a good kid, you just need more discipline.'

True that.

I procrastinate too much and get angry too much.


I have the biggest pile of clothes in the middle of my floor.
I need to wash some clothes and put a ton away.
I need to do like, 5 applications.
I need to draw like 20 designs.
I need to draw 10 fine arts things.
I need to read this book.
I need to stop being so shy
so scared
so nervous
so angry.
I need to get what I want myself and not wait around.
I need to get friends who will always be there.
..I have 4 right now. That's all I need I guess, but I miss old friends.
I neeeeeeeeeed a boy who will not screw me over. Like every other boy has.
I need to expnd my vocabulary.
I need to hit David Chen next time he puts me down because 5 times is 1 too many.
My kittens really cute.
bye.

I wish my grades were good enough for early action


or my portfolio was at least half way done.







FUCK SCHOOL.

Welll, I purchased my macbook, although it doesn't connect to the internet :[.
LAME.
videochats<3


I'm really skinny.
I have cat scratches on my arm.
I got in trouble in school the other day. -Twice..within a 2 minute whatever.
Once for my phone then a 'you better not be late to class'
Excuses: i was talking to my mom and no, im going home to go to work?


Misery Signals/Emmure/Sky Eats Airplane/Born of Osiris/The Agony Scene.
Saw them here in Jersey. Hungout for a long time after.
Went to philly to see them.
Stayed over the house where Emmure was and then ventured to Virginia.
Stayed for the days they were there. Then took a train home.
Basically I went on tour for a few days. It was so much fun.
Though, sleeping in the van sucks, not really sleeping, nicotine, not enough food, piggy back rides, play grounds, skateboarding.. FUN.
I miss everyone :[[ a lot.

I start FIT on Saturday. Rad. I hope Hunter moves soon so I can sleep on his couch and save money.